imm backkk....let me start off by sayin there is a freakin blizzard outside and they wan me 2 go to work!! no seriously theres a blizzard with like 2 feet of snow on the ground lol. people are crazyy! but as for life well what can i say ive been through soo much from the end of last year to now. i thought with a new year there would be a new begining and a chance to make it a great year to remember but no, if things keep going the way they are, itll be a year i want to forget. from family memebrs being hospitalized, me being hospitalized twice, problems with my manager, added stress from other things at work and school, things i found out about people, and other things i cant even write about now cuz its just too much to even mention here. it truely breaks my heart to see people i love suffering. honestly after my car accident i was up and driving again the next day but when things like this happen it bothers me. i cant sleep and i feel as if my soul is slowly getting crushed by others. sometimes i just dont know what to do with myself. i try to stay positive and joke around and be the person everyone knows me to be, the girl who always has a smile on her face. but im finding it harder and harder to keep that image up. ill try to keep my future entries the way they used to be with more jokes and less of this but maybe within a month or so things will turn around and everything will be okay again....i guess ill just have to wait.......